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18 December 2008 @ 11:57 pm
As we bemoan our endless self-sabotage  
I need to write. God, I need to write.

I can't even think about LJ right now, really. I read it a lot, especially for inspiration. But even the words of a comment don't come easily lately. I've been unable to bounce back after the trauma of the last month or two. Bouncing back was my biggest strength, so I'm scared to see that falter.

My confidence in my writing has faded significantly in the past few weeks. Suddenly I'm finding ever reason to hate my work, and it's frustrating. I want to be able to snap out of it, but all I can do is stare at my computer and inwardly criticize my ideas.

I can't do what I did with acting. I can't suddenly take something I have such passion for and tear it in two out of spite and anger. But writing is something you're good at or you're not. People can tell if you're faking it, and more and more I just... don't have that confidence that I used to.

Maybe I'm just too lazy. There's nothing I can do right now but keep trying. I need a huge dose of inspiration right this instant. I need to write more than you could ever know.
Current Mood: frustratedfrustrated
Adrian/Sparky (and many variations thereof): soft smilespastiksparky on December 19th, 2008 10:20 pm (UTC)
aw... cheer up! You're an excellent writer in my opinion. I may not really be a super-informed writing critic, but your stories are intriguing and very well written. They're unique and I really admire that. Don't be so hard on yourself...*hug*
Writing Fiendelysiadawnielle on January 5th, 2009 08:41 am (UTC)
Thanks so much, hon! I was in such a bad place when I wrote this, and I was super frustrated. But I appreciate your kind words and encouragment. *hugs*